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Late Saturday, Early Sunday

It is actually around 9:00 Sunday morning, but I missed yesterday completely.

It's come to the front of my mind exactly how I left work on Friday the 12th, and I'm back to feeling crappy about work and myself. I left with the worst Performance Review I've EVER received hanging over my head and an "opportunity" to step BACK and work in Word Processing again which I don't want to do but accepted anyway because I didn't want to sound like a petulant child when I was already upset about the Review. After all, it's a job, and right now, isn't that what's important? I hope things ease enough hiring-wise internally so I can post out. For the first time I actually DO want to leave my department. (Interesting this happens as it did in Word Processing under this same supervisor. At least she's nicer about it now.)

But Saturday was a good one. We took tiirz out for her birthday to eat nommy Dim Sum out at the Phoenix Palace and stuffed ourselves; then we hung around watching stuff after presents were given. I showed the always impressively bad Sharktopus, then we watched the entire first season of The Big Bang Theory. Much laughter was to be had. We missed framefolly something fierce, especially in the episode where Sheldon is learning Mandarin.

Malificent arrives to cut short the festivities at one of the shows. "Believe in dreams!"

And a video:


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Nov. 28th, 2010 04:35 pm (UTC)
Great icon *g* and really weird video.

I'm sorry about work. I didn't know about the WP thing. It sounds like this manager has issues, whether just with you or in general. Would it be worth talking to HR in a non-confrontational way? ie: Not complaining about the manager but pointing out your review history and asking for guidance, since clearly what works for other managers is a problem with her, and you want everything to go smoothly so you can best contribute to the corporate bottom line, etc.
Nov. 28th, 2010 05:14 pm (UTC)
The crows were instigators.

Yeah, that was another thing. She was really nice and supportive as she offered it. I don't know, I just get so emotional about things I want to be sure I can speak to someone without breaking down (hence the times I've seriously considered a therapist). So much is up in the air right now with our entire department I wanted to see exactly what happens before getting bitchy about things, but on the other hand, with that kind of review going into said upheaval, how can I be assured of getting another position?

We'll see how this week stacks up, and what's happening within the company. The last thing I want to do is rock the boat and find myself in the water.
Nov. 28th, 2010 10:20 pm (UTC)
Check with HR. This sounds strange to me.
Nov. 28th, 2010 05:41 pm (UTC)
[hugs for work woes]
Nov. 28th, 2010 08:57 pm (UTC)
Nov. 28th, 2010 06:23 pm (UTC)
That really sucks.

Would the change to Word Processing make you less likely to be outsourced? Would you have less stress there? Is the review completely unfair (my first year teaching I was a mess. My reviews were terrible - because I wasn't getting enough help!)?

Or is HR just a total cunt? :)

You know, I always advise therapy - if you don't like it, you don't have to keep going, you know.

:::hugs you!:::

BTW, the crows totally mindfucked the cats into fighting. Because birds are teh EVOL

Nov. 28th, 2010 09:09 pm (UTC)
Re: Yuck
I came out of Word Processing originally (under this supervisor) and have been doing really well in Imaging; last year (you might remember my whining about it), this supervisor was put over Imaging. Fine; things seemed a lot better. We were getting along just fine, and I thought, "Hey, she has changed."

But apparently there are "complaints" about my "attitude," and that's what's actually caused my poor ranking. I did manage to claim I thought it was an unfair accusation, but it went onto my shield, anyway.

So I get my performance review and while I'm pondering this and trying not to cry in front of her, she starts up with the, "since we're still farming people out to other departments who need help, we've put you forth." I perk up a little, think this is a good thing, and then it's... word processing. Not that I ever hated word processing, but that's another department that's going corporate and so won't exist anymore when the changes happen, so it's not like it's going to benefit me in any way except, of course, saying at least I "play ball" and am willing to pitch in. I had hoped my record would speak for itself, but now my record says I'm irritable and annoy my teammates. (Which I might very well do, but I think I bear up pretty well most of the time, considering.)

I haven't gone to HR because in general I usually don't complain, I just deal with things and nine times out of ten I either outlast what's causing me trouble or something breaks and I move on. This time--I don't know. I can't really "outlast" this time, simply because Ad Services will be going away anyway.

I have looked up several local therapists, but the price always makes me hesitate to reach for the phone...

Those crows were definitely instigators.
Nov. 28th, 2010 09:34 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I'm so sorry about your job woes. I've had bad performance reviews that were totally crap before and it sucks. (The last time, I was called on the carpet for minor stuff I would do while working my ass off, while others were given great reviews when they'd sit and watch youtube on their computers they snuck in and be extremely lazy. HATE.) I hope that things work out okay.

Crows. *shiver* I met my first one in northern Arizona. It was looking menacingly at me and stalked me as we walked around. Very creepy.
Nov. 29th, 2010 01:00 am (UTC)
In some ways it's fair-ish, because I acknowledge I have a temper and I have trouble dealing with, well, people who don't get it. HOWEVER, I work REAL hard at it and the one event that got me an "official reprimand" was one where I SWEAR I wasn't mad or upset or yelling or anything -- I was kidding with the woman, and everyone (I mean EVERYONE) does the same thing with her. If I get back and find out everyone else got good reviews, I am definitely out of there, because I work my ass off. ANYWAY... am trying to keep a good outlook here. Must go in with good attitude, for it will help!

I've never seen crows do that. I'm not sure how precisely it could have been "staged," as one of the comments states...
Nov. 28th, 2010 10:22 pm (UTC)
Those crows are definitely mixers.

I'd go to HR. I think your supervisor has issues left over from the days she supervised word processing. Ask HR why you have received this ranking since you have changed nothing in your behavior.
Nov. 29th, 2010 01:02 am (UTC)
I loved the way they kept trying to get the tortie's tail. Silly birds. Definitely mixers.

Yeah. I want to prowl around this week and see how things have fallen in the time I've been gone, and find out if anyone else is unhappy with their reviews -- then we shall see.
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