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In the Wide Random World of Thinkiness

I haven't been posting much because I have been mildly down for a while and I'm tired of posting only when I'm feeling whiney and depressed. Especially when my problems are pretty danged weenie when compared to other folks (I went so far as to look up therapists in the local Gay Friendly listings, and found several good ones, but the $100 a session sort of made me back down from actually contacting any of them).

Random thought #1: A couple of days ago I felt angry toward, well, pretty much all organized religions when I saw a perfectly nice-appearing Muslim couple at the grocery store, crossing the parking lot. HE was dressed in light khakis, and open cotton shirt, and sleeveless under shirt, with sandals. SHE was in a full head scarf and hijab, covered from her forehead to her toes, with only her face showing, and I couldn't help but think to myself, "Why is it the WOMEN must always show modesty and not the men?" Especially since it was 110 F out there and extremely sticky.

This formed the basis, Kuan Yin with a tiny laughing Buddha:

But I had to move the Doctor and the Jesus action figure to my desk with Billy and the Green Lucky Cat (in his place in the northeast corner of the house--there is a red one in the kitchen {southeast} and a blue one in the bedroom {north}):

And Ganesh is out in the living room now:

With some more lucky cats on the sound system:

This poster has been on the wall of my bedroom in every home I've ever lived in since 1975 (although no one sees it since the closet door is usually open):

And this is my bureau, more lucky cats and more Elvis:

Now there's a ghost story starting to take shape in my head. Not sure if I should start working on it or save it for NaNo, which means I should finish the fluff I've been playing with (in which I write like Margaret Atwood, according to the writer's meme); it's at least fluff with story, even if it requires spending a lot of time on Google Satellite, since I've never been to that part of South Dakota--I was in an extreme magnification on the map and scrolling around below a river bottom and suddenly something large and blue showed up. I thought, "What's that?" and realized the "river bottom" I'd been looking at was merely a small tributary; the big blue thing was the FREAKIN' MISSOURI RIVER--anyway, times like that research bogs me down.

The ghost story, should it actually develop more plot, could be at least marketable. Opening line:

His apartment looked out over the graveyard.

Of course, I'd leave those words out of the final count if I did save it for Nano. I had another idea for NaNo fluff, though, so if Ghost Story comes out, I'll let it. It's not hard to crank out words. Not even a little.

I saw a coyote squashed on the side of the 143 coming home today. I was torn between "poor thing!" and "hey, that's a coyote!"

Ooo, I just heard thunder. There's a monsoon storm out there. I started out with Bo on his walk and about forty feet from the house, the hot wind suddenly dropped about 15 degrees into a relatively cool wind. It didn't rain, though (sprinkled a little); maybe it will rain now.


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Aug. 18th, 2010 03:49 am (UTC)
I always claim to be very accepting of change, but in reality, it just makes me cranky. I'll get over it, I'm sure.


Aug. 18th, 2010 03:16 am (UTC)
I love how eclectic and personalized your house is. It's very Victorian in the amount of -abilia around, but very not-Victorian in the particulars.

Don't get me started on sexism in religion. I'm not exactly a fan of my own. Having her period makes a woman dirty? Oh really?
Aug. 18th, 2010 03:54 am (UTC)
Sometimes I'm sure we have too much stuff and I should get rid of a bunch of it, but when I start looking at it, it's MY STUFF!!!

No kidding. I've been all cynical lately about how pretty much every religion is just an excuse to keep women "in their place." Feh to all of 'em, I say.
Aug. 18th, 2010 04:56 am (UTC)
i have that same Kuan Yin book/statue/altar right by the computer here.

Eh, if the ghost story wants to come, start it now and then discount that come nano time. that's what i'm planning on doing.

Aug. 19th, 2010 02:09 am (UTC)
Book club, ho!

Yeah, I figure I'll let it out if it develops beyond "neat idea."

Aug. 19th, 2010 02:40 am (UTC)
hahaha yes.

sounds like a plan. it's definitely not too early to be planning nano. only 2 1/2 months away now
Aug. 18th, 2010 10:55 am (UTC)
Kuan Yin
Is da bomb!

And the lucky cats - essential!

I'm amused by the fact that I have so many religious things when I'm essentially very agnostic!

I always feel out of sorts during change. Sometimes you just have to ride it out like a run of bad weather.

Love you!
Aug. 18th, 2010 01:08 pm (UTC)
Re: Kuan Yin
I think I'm what might be called a "spiritualist" in my beliefs! In other words, I'm either hedging my bets or none of 'em will take me, hard to say. *g*

There are more lucky cats in this house than a shop in Chinatown...

{feels loved}

Aug. 18th, 2010 11:28 am (UTC)
[hugs and sympathies for feeling down]

If you're feeling the story now -- I'd say write it now.

May it be a good Wednesday for you!
Aug. 18th, 2010 01:10 pm (UTC)

Parts of it are coming out. I was doing research on the cemetery, which is much younger than I had thought! (It's a sad little potters field near my office where they stuck luxury apartment rentals; I always drive by and wonder about the people who live in the apartments that overlook the graves...)

Aug. 18th, 2010 05:21 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry you're on the whiny depressed side of life right now. (You know I know that feeling.) With regard to therapists... see if you know anyone who has seen someone in the area. Friend referrals are always really useful. If not, you can still find a good one just by picking names out of the phonebook/online pages/whatever. When you call their offices, ask the receptionist (or therapist if they run a private practice by themselves) if they do "sliding scale." That phrase lets them know that you don't have the means to pay full price for sessions. Most will give you a discounted price per session.

Also, for cheap but effective therapy, look at working with a social worker (LMSWs). Since they don't have PhDs and only masters degrees, they charge less. Also, I've found that they're just a lot better listeners than psychologists. My current therapist, Monica, is an LMSW and the best therapist I've ever had.

On a different note, I love how eclectic your tchotchkes are. Buddha and Ganesh, but also The Doctor and a giant litter of Lucky Cats. You definitely prove my feeling that picking and choosing parts of different religions to create your own is perfectly acceptable as long as it works for you.
Aug. 19th, 2010 02:15 am (UTC)

It was on your advice that I actually Googled therapists who were specifically gay-friendly, and found some nice connections; I'll look to see if any of them are social workers rather than full psychologists. Some of them do sound very nice, though, and many specialize in problems for LGBT folks.

That's exactly my thought. I love Jesus, it's just Christians that bother me; and I adore Eastern spiritualism; I did get a little embarrassed when I was wearing my Ganesh ring on a plane and a lovely Hindu couple sat next to me... (I don't know enough about the religion to really acquit myself in conversation, but I DO like what he stands for.)
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