April 25th, 2014

Dr 11

I Haven't Been Around Much

This morning it seemed like everything that could go wrong was going wrong. Part of it was my own cranky attitude, but each new DAMN IT moment just seemed to magnify until I was ready to start screaming at everything, starting with AGAIN waking up an hour or so before the alarm and then lying there awake until it actually went off and being too tired to get up, then never being able to get back to sleep ANYWAY, so I should have gotten up and then I get mad at myself for not getting up, and so on and so forth.

Deep breaths.

How dare other people be on MY road when I wish to drive on it?

I don’t know where my time is going lately. I barely seem to have any of it to do anything, and yet I still seem to waste a great deal, possibly because I often feel so brain dead at night, that matching tiles in Microsoft Mah-Jong seems like the only thing I can do (at least it requires some amount of brain power).

I haven’t been able to write anything in months, even when I open a file and make suggested edits, I don’t do much else. (Including Journal entries, apparently.) The post-NaNo slump continues.

Last night we went to see The Winter Soldier. Collapse )

I never thought this week would end.

It's finally, finally Friday evening.