I know much of the LJ community is heavily weighted toward fanfic writers (at least, many of the places I roam around reading), so when I join up a new community and everyone's posting/writing fanfic, I feel weird talking about my own writing. I don't think that original work is inherently superior in any way, shape, or form to fanfic -- on the contrary, I know that fanfic writers work damned hard on their art and much of it is brilliant, and it is in no way "lesser" because it's based on something else. The weird thing is I sometimes feel like I should apologize for not wanting to write fanfic, and having no desire to do so, and I feel guilty or weird talking about the writing I do, which is what interests ME. I joined a Doctor 10 community because I like looking at pictures of David Tennant because he looks a lot like my own original vampire hero, not because I want to write Doctor Who fanfic. (I might read some, though, just as I read the odd Buffy/Spike fanfic.) I am a Doctor Who fan, and leaning toward being more than a little Whovian (although I'm a mere sprout in Who fandom, a show I never watched until I met rahirah, and only got to see a few regular episodes of before the Tucson PBS station stopped showing it, somewhere in the middle of Doctor 6's run, and never saw any Doctor 7 at all); I just feel no urge to write Who fanfic. I felt only a brief moment of an urge to write Buffy fanfic, and produced only one finished story and a half-finished drama before Sean Patrick came along and I started my novel. I suppose my years of ElfQuest fic counts as fanfic, because it wasn't my universe, but the characters and situations were all mine; and I never wrote fanfic for any of the other obsessions I fell in thrall to -- from LotR to Narnia to Star Trek -- I always wrote my own stories (some of them desperate crap, of course), and have pretty much done so since I was in grade school.
I think mostly I only feel that urge when I'm unhappy with how the "real" writers are portraying things - in the case of Buffy, as far as I'm concerned, they screwed it up after Tabula Rasa and anything I could do from that point on would only be an improvement (except, of course, I think rahirah already did it pretty damned well).
I don't know why I'm so damned moody, though. I'm glad I posted the last time I was hormonal, since it was, by LJ, only a week and a half ago, so that can't possibly be coming up again! I hate it when I feel like this, too, because it makes me want to eat, and I'm doing very well (the scale may not exactly agree, but my size-13 cords are starting to slip off my hips, so I'm happy about THAT, at least). But I'm sitting here thinking about pie, dang it, and Pie Is Evil. I already ate a handful of honey-roasted almonds and a serving of Doritos. More than sufficient snackage.
My vacation simply cannot come soon enough.