( New eggs )

I guess I'm starting an albino army.

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( the human still functions )

I am on the couch and I don't think I'll be moving any time soon off the couch.

One day left, and no wings yet. Oops.

It's odd: I don't know why I love Dollhouse as much as I do. I understand all the criticisms. But, in spite of that, I love it. And while "Man on the Street" is certainly the best episode of what I've seen so far...I fell in love with the show before that.

I don't know why. I don't find any of the characters particularly appealing. I can see how problematic the whole thing is.

And yet - I love this show. I LOVE THIS SHOW.

The concept, the ideas, the philosophical issues....I find it just so unbelievably compelling and utterly fascinating. What is memory - what is self - what is other - what is real - what is fantasy - what is perception - what is imagination - where are the boundaries between self and other - what would it feel like, from the inside, to be someone else - how do you know that your memories are real - how do you know that anything is real - how much of our perception of another person is reality and how much is imagination - how much of our perception of self is reality and how much is imagination - can you ever really know another person - can you ever really know yourself - how do we delude ourselves into thinking people are what we want them to be - how do we delude ourselves into thinking we're what we want to be...

It's all just so fascinating and so compelling.

I love this show.

Thank you.

It's been a long, long day. I've spent the whole day runing around. I'm tired now.
( Three little eggs that should start cracking soon. )

Walls: Bones, 30Rock, Lisa Edelstein, Doctor/Rose

( Dragons... )

Thanks in advance! *goes to ninja-click*

Dinner last night went ok, except that sillypizzagirl got really sick and couldn't spend the night at her other grandparent's place. Thankfully she's feeling better today. Oh, and my partner's water bottle drink dialed me at 5:30 am which didn't please Voodoo one bit and he's been hiding under the bed ever since, after it taking me hours to get him in because he was still mad at me from the Advantage dosing. I still have a gold egg hatchie that I'd be willing to trade for a vampire egg. Don't forget dragonspam_er for when your babies are down to 3 days or less and dragon_er for when your babies have less than 2 days left. Thank you for your clicks and views.

( Here there be dragons )

When is Season 2 of Dollhouse likely to come out on DVD?

Unfortunately, I probably won't be able to watch S2 until it is out on DVD.

I have an ancient 13-inch television that gets no reception, and I don't have cable - so basically the tv isn't a tv, it's a monitor for the DVD player.

I know that you can watch episodes on the Fox website, but my computer is an ASUS EEE PC netbook that runs on Linux, and I've never been able to make that work.

So, I'll probably have to wait for the DVDs.

Watching DVDs works for the way I tend to watch tv series: I either get completely obsessed with a show and watch episodes over and over and over and over and over again, or I don't watch it at all - I don't do casual tv viewing.

That's partly because I grew up without a television - so I never learned to watch tv in the casual way that most people do.

The only time in my life that I've had tv was 1993-2004, when I was first in college dorms and then in shared apartments where we had cable (it's easier to pay for cable when you have several apartment-mates to share the expense). When I got my own place in 2004, I couldn't afford cable - even basic packages are absurdly expensive. And even if I could afford it, it wouldn't seem worth it since I don't do the casual-viewing thing.

So instead, I have a few DVDs of shows that I watch over and over and over and over and over again.

The trouble is, now that I've fallen hard for Dollhouse, I don't want to have to wait for the S2 DVDs...

Before i get that far though, here's my overweaning thought for the morning: I'm not sure what's worse. Waking up with a migraine and nausea, waking up with the earworm of Monthy Python's Sit on My Face or having one of my science major's bagging up my Hemp milk at the Kroger's. OOO I'm having coffee in Doc D's office!

Dear Characters (wow I haven't had one of these yet)

QUIT CHANGING YOUR NAMES

Howell Killingsworth, give it up. You insisted on Howell and you love your last name. What the hell else do you want?

Placid Longstaff - Yes your name is a joke. It's MEANT to be.

Melantha Honeycutt - You just wouldn't let me change your last name. Heck even the spellchecker kept turning Honeysett back to Honeycutt so I guess it's fate

Thomas Wakefield - You are not Irish. You can not have the first name Keegan. Live with it.

Ophelia Winter - Yes the Feel-ya Burns joke worked better but I am not having a Honeycutt-Burns joke going thru this. Besides Winter fits your personality

Violet McFarland - Yes your name is old-fashioned but you are the representation of femininity in this novel.

Julian Longstaff - Thank you for being so understanding and not complaining but that IS your nature.

Dear Placid

Why in the hell are you standing out in the yard wailing about how ugly your body is and crying that even the hookers didn't want to touch you? Don't you know Melantha's dad can hear you from there? Wasn't it bad enough you went wandering through the house in your boxers in front of your brother's girlfriend?

Dear Melantha

You're supposed to be the female main character. For god's sake stop letting Placid run away with the novel. DO SOMETHING. ANYTHING. You must become more interesting.

And here are the pep talks from nano. I have no idea who either of these people are but as someone who handwrites A LOT, I liked one of their pep talks. the other is just plain amusing (and yes the freaking middle of the book is always the damn hardest)

( Maureen Johnson )

( Lynda Barry )

both of them have websites but i was too headachy to play around coding them in for you all.


oh and Dear J &M next door. I sure as hell hope you like old jazz and swing music. I've been mainlining it to get the feel of my novel's time period. Just rock out to Big Bad Voodoo Daddy, they're fun


ETA - forgot my word count last night and just now. duh... I did make my goal of 4K in a day

25931 / 50000 words. 52% done!

Half way there all

First things first: UT 47 Baylor 14
It would have been a shutout, but Coach Brown pulled Colt McCoy early in the 2nd half so he could rest, and the second string gave up the 2 TDs. However, I'm very pleased with the backup QB... he's from the Austin area, and is really good for being so young. I'm a lot less worried about how we'll do next season when McCoy leaves for the pros.

2) I have stayed in IOP. Had a heart-to-heart with my therapist (Dr. Bustamante - who is totally a tiny dark Italian kid). I told him I wasn't getting anything out of the group and that I was rather sick of listening to other's problems. He told me that the reason I wasn't getting anything out of the group was that I wasn't actually putting anything in. Huh? Turns out that I was totally closed off emotion-wise. Without being emotional, I'm not going to actually be able to work on my stuff. And that I needed to be a little more Em-centric instead of trying to fix everyone else. He gave me a choice to make before the staffing happened (where everyone on staff for the IOP gets together with me and talks about my progress - or, in this case, lack of - and where to go from there). I thought hard and decided to go ahead and stay in IOP. And try to actually work.

One of the things I decided to do was to stop putting on my makeup and making sure I looked really good before going. I was using it as a mask, as a way to deny that anything was wrong. It's technically called "active denial." Where you are all, "I WAS damaged/sick/depressed/etc. but now I'm JUST FINE" when you totally aren't. I used being put together as a way to say to myself, "I'm not sick, I'm not as screwed up as these people." And that got me into trouble, because I didn't get real with myself and my group members, which is what's necessary to actually get something out of the group.

I really tried hard Weds and Fri to be more vulnerable, to share more, to let myself actually feel, instead of just talking. Dr. B and one of the other therapists both gave me the thumbs-up for sharing. I felt actually really good afterward. Less tired than when I was pretending I was okay. Strange, but true. One of the girls in the group said that she admired me for being always put together and seeming to be okay. I said, "But I'm NOT okay. It was a lie I was telling myself and everyone else. But I'm really good at that lie. I'm trying not to lie to myself and y'all anymore." It felt really good to say that.

3) I'm doing okay at this whole eating better thing. Not great... I have had a couple of cheeseburgers, but mostly I'm having small meals and light snacks. I'm mainly drinking water, propel, iced tea (no sugar, but saccharin), and coffee. That has taken a LOT of calories out of my diet right there. I used to go through a whole 2 liter on a bad day. Now, I have only had 3 glasses of coke in the last 2 weeks. That's INSANE. Oh! I'm wondering if any of y'all have had Coke with Splenda... does it taste okay? Or does it taste icky? I can only find it in a 12pack of cans, and I don't want to pay $4 if it's going to suck.

4) I'm so busy right now that I'm finding that I can't watch my ridiculous amount of prime time shows until the weekend. My schedule:
Monday: 8:30a-12:30p IOP, 2-3p Sis physical therapy
Tues: 9:30-10:30a indiv therapy, 2-3p Sis indiv therapy
Weds: repeat of Monday
Thurs: usually free
Friday: 8:30-12:30p IOP, 3-4p Sis indiv therapy

This leaves only Tuesday afternoons (sometimes) and Thursdays for any medical appointments. I can't tell you how hard it is to schedule things that way. I get so tired. But, I'm on a day schedule now... the latest I've slept in this weekend is 10am. That's NUTS, considering I used to sleep all day and stay up all night.

5) I LOVE this cartoon... I felt this way completely on Thursday. I was at the hospital clinic to see the ob/gyn. The thing about the county hospital is that people are constantly dirty and sick and icky. My appointment was at 1. I arrived at 12:30, as instructed. By 2:30, I still hadn't been seen, but I had been coughed on several times. I was also told that it was the luck of the draw, and that they couldn't guarantee that I could see a woman. I'm sorry but I am NOT going to let a male student doctor practice sticking stuff into me. Can we say traumatic? And just thinking about it was starting to make me panic. Not to mention I was getting a headache because it's always so LOUD because everyone feels like they need to talk, and the nurses always scream out the patient's names when calling them back. At 2:45 I asked if I was EVER going to see someone, and was told that there were still 4 women to be seen ahead of me. I told them to take me off the list, as I was going home. It was FUCKING RIDICULOUS. Anyway, Dilbert:

I decided to rescue a few pinks! Thanks for any clicks and I will be ninja clicking throughout the day!

( Eggies beyond here... )